I wonder...if I didn't make a 1 year commitment to a job in a place far away from home1, would my perception of people, places and things around me be so rosey? Would I want bar food had it not been for the thought that in the next year or so, I'm going to be on a fish2/rice/veggie diet? Would I rack up on clothing that screams Canada3? Would I stay up late to see friends knowing that I had work the next day? Would I be as brave as I am now?
How can it be that the grass is greener here before I've even stepped over to the other side?
On the contrary..what if I never got the job? Would my current situation seem promising? Probably not.
There's so much going on in my life right now that I want continuing...but making a change as big as moving to the other side of the world just doesn't allow for these things to happen. But maybe it's this sense of bravery that is bringing so many good things to me? It's been a while since my answer to "how are you?" isn't "same old". I've had a number of negative feedback on this new job. Everything from the salary4 to the city5 to the distance6...it's been so hard convincing people that it's right for me. But then I began thinking. This job is really just about me, not anybody else. But then again..why do I care enough to make my reasonings public? Maybe I do care about people here...but only enough to miss you!
I'm going to Japan! See you soon, Tottori-shi!
1 Japan!
2 I'm a vegetarian. I said I'd eat meat again. But I saw my mom preparing chicken today...maybe I'll stick with veggies for a little longer.
3 I did it. Park life, Vancouver 2010 hoodie. Shame on me!!
4 One - it's the best I can do for now. Two - tacky question to ask people about their salary.
5 I chose it. I'm living there, not vacationing for a year.
6 This coming from people who won't drive past the GTA.
Sunday, March 07, 2010
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wow! How long will you be there for? so that's what that Japanese was about on your fb?.?. My good friend just return from studying abroad in Japan...
Where are you going to be working?
Japan, 1 year. I hope you're friend had a good time :)
reading your previous posts, it's funny how you seem to always think ppl are attacking you.... even for ppl who do drive past the gta, japan is still very far ! for those who ask u abt the salary, i'm assuming that these ppl that u talk to r your friends, and they only care abt u enough to ask. telling friends that ur moving to japan for a yr - it is not a big surprise that they will ask u questions like for how long? why? how much? they r not attacking u ! close friends who ask care abt u, and those not that close ask bcoz u told them n they want to keep the conversation going. u should not feel u need to convince anybody ! everybody has their own opinions n if u can't accept theirs, then y be friends with them? y tell them in the 1st place?i am sorry to say..... but u r a very bitter person.
You know, anonymous..these experiences that I'm writing about are shortened up tremendously. I wish I could tell you what they say too so you can get both sides of the story fairly, because I do understand that it may seem one-sided right now. But for the sake of their privacy, I keep my posts as vague as possible. So maybe you can consider what they might have said after I revealed my situation to make me feel the way I feel now.
Also, about being bitter. I am aware of myself, but thank you for pointing that out. I don't know if you know me personally or not..but if you really knew me in person and all my past experiences, you'd know why I might feel attacked.
Plus, if all I ever kept posting were happy-go-lucky entries, you, as a reader would be bored and never come back. Please know that my blog to me is just entertainment, I don't write in my blog like I would in my personal journal. There'sno need to take it so seriously.
But thanks for taking the time to comment.
My same Friend also studied in London who then traveled all over Europe. Japan and London are the top 2 places he wants to live as of now, I'm sure you will have an experience of a life time and I'm sure you'll find yourself soon. Do you leave soon?
I personally think that I would not be bored if all your entries were happy.... y would u think that happy entries equates boring? Don't get me wrong.... ur blog is as entertaining for me to read as it is for u to write. i could not help but sense that u felt i was attacking u. did my comment make u feel that i was taking u so seriously? or that there was a need for me to take u so seriously? it was only a comment that maybe ppl are not attacking u n actually care abt u.... a suggestion for u to think that maybe those who question ur move to japan n who give u negative feedback r really the ones who care abt u, n that those who tell u everything u want to hear perhaps don't.
Kevin - I'm leaving in May.
Anonymous - Whatever the people around me think, is just what they think. The things I wrote about them are my own interpretation of our experiences together. Your interpretation of me, is your interpretation. Feel free to think whatever you like about me. You could be right, you could be wrong. Sometimes I don't even know myself, so I'm open to interpretations.
I do think it's interesting however, that you've taken such an interest in my perspective of the people in my life. Does it bother you that I'm bitter? It's not usual that someone would pay so much attention to one particular part of a post unless it affected themselves somehow. So my question to you is, how has my post affected you?
Your ask if I feel attacked by your comment? No, I'm intrigued that someone would take the time to write such a long comment(s) to a post. I am very flattered that you'd take the time to write such a deep comment, and I thank you for that. Please know that a personal blog such as this puts me in a very vulnerable position, in that I write about my stories with an identity and you, a commenter can write anonymously, making your position a lot easier than mine.
In case I haven't made my entries clear enough, I write with a self-deprecating, dark, whimsical and loving humour. Try reading my entries with that in mind and maybe it'll begin to sound different.
So then on a lighter note, when the next gathering up there comes around in late May, you will already have left, that's a shame! I hope you continue to blog while you are there and not forget your audience who do indeed take quite interest in what you have to say.
Thanks, Kevin. Yes, I will indeed miss our annual gathering :( And thanks for your support.
All the best, Jeannie.
Normally, I would sign my name to a good wish, but since you haven't told me about the changes in your life in person, I will sign anonymously (it is only fair).
Au revoir :)
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